Random Thoughts.

The other day I was chatting with a friend and he said that my life seems a lot better after I moved here.

It is only somewhat true.

Somedays, after I switched off the light and lie on the bed, it makes me sick to the stomach knowing that Hui Yien is not 7 floors downstairs and ShuShan and Joe is not opposite my block.

At times it really sucks, knowing that I couldn't drive to 5.2 tomorrow to occupy Kevin's cube the whole day and pinch and kick him every 5 minutes, or tell him I think I am pregnant and then have him look at me in horror, or go to Kayu at 4.30pm weekly with Porny and Kevin and LSP and VSoon, or go to work at 9am everyday and had 1 hour breakfast of 10000 bullshits with YYY and Shu, or go to work to find Milo on my cube table from CheongSiak and ChinCheong (it never fail to make my day), or listen to CheongSiak scolding people in Hokkien or slamming the keyboard in the cube next to mine, or being a true bitch in front of Porny and yet constantly remind him that he should be thankful for a friend like me, or go to lunch with everyone in Kim Gary (hoping that I can lunch there everyday even though the food sucks but I just like to hang out there), or say Pey short everytime I see her, or the occasional pot luck in her house, or YYY's 7pm dinner sms, and criticize his aircond-less ferrari, or hang out in LSP house to watch Stephen Chow and play mahjong every Saturday (serious! we have to watch Stephen Chow everytime we play mahjong dont know why), or go karaoke with Shu, YYY, Ya Wen every Friday lunch until we have no other friends, or pass by Joe's cube and caught him looking at photography forums (all the time), or sit in cube and wait for Pei Shan to hand deliver her home made cakes, or the annual clubbing session with Joel and gang and hoping someone get drunk and humiliate himself so I can laugh at him the next day (*cough* YYY *cough*), or peep whether Joe's car or Porny's car is still parked beside and below mine when I go to work in the morning, or go back to Danzity opposite Qbay and dance the night away with Grace and AngieX2 and ChengLin and ChiaHuey because I had the best times there, and some 199737423462437525 other things that I can never finish listing.

Or..simply, just be able to call them and have them drive me out anytime anyday whenever I am feeling bored and just, sit in a cafe whole night and sigh our life away.

Everything that I do there is nothing great, but all that has become a routine, a habit, something that I have and WILL do every day every week, but still enjoy it nonetheless.

I felt horrible at times. Because this is not a matter of just being away on a business trip for 3 months or 1 year and get back to how things were. I would not be able to do any of the above anymore in my life and sometimes when I think of that, I could almost feel the pair of tears escape and I have to tell myself that all this is for the better. I cannot stay in the same situation just for this, because, people move on, they move forward and they improve their life. I can't stay stagnant just for this things that I want to be able to do everyday. One day, everyone would have their own direction and their own family and their own life. No matter what, one day, we won't be able to have breakfast and lunch and dinner and keep each other company every single day. Which reminds me, Porny used to tell me he has nothing to talk to me because our communication quota is up for all the hours that we spent together wtf.

So, yes, life is great here. But it would be a whole lot greater if I have them here with me. (and so I hope everyday that Penang island would sink soon so they will all move here.)