Happy New Year 2010!

My god. It's the last day of 2009. Can time still fly any faster than this wtf.

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010 EVERYONE! *throwing confetti around*

2010 will be definitely be a good year for me because I have a wonderful family, amazing boyfriend, and a whole bunch of mou liu friends to keep me company! What can be better than that?!

What I Did In 2009.

I'm supposed to write about 2010 resolution but before that maybe a bit of recap is good so I know what I'd done and what I wanted to do in 2010.

1. I lost 7kg end of Dec'08. TUJUH! SEVEN! CAT! WORTH MENTIONING OKAY. But I already gained it all back now =(

2. Candy is back from the US for 1 month and we had a great Dec-Jan including my birthday celebration in KL and Christmas in Spore!



2. CNY 2009 with everyone back in Sgt except Candy who has already left =( 2010 CNY will be lagi sad even Pauline & Martin won't be here /boo



3. CNY Kek Lok Si for the umpteenth time. This is one of the few occasions throughout the year where we can gather everyone to go out together now that we're old and grumpy and always tired.



4. I had a new boyfriend and that changed my life quite a bit, but in a really good way though. I also spent a nice Valentines...doing nothing. I can't believe I did nothing! I was seriously thinking now if I missed out anything but no..ilek...we seriously didn't do anything! Anyway no matter what, I think what's important is we get to spend precious time together. He treated me like I'm a rare piece of jewel lol. I'm honestly contented enough.

5. "Celebrated" Jesamine's farewell =( She's leaving Msia for good with her husband who loved her like nothing else matters so we thought we all should drag our lazy butt out to the club.



6. Me, Shu, Pey and MeiLing started selling masks lol! It was pretty good sales though. Many who bought it said it works for them. I used it for a while but did not continue because my face is ULTRA SENSITIVE and it flares up red even if I touches dust. ripley's believe or not. Anyway, everything was sold out and I'm not selling it anymore but I think the others still do.

7. Applied and was accepted into Simon Graduate School of Business, University of Rochester, New York with USD13k scholarship per year. It is a good school, ranked 29 in US News and 46 in Financial Times. One of the many reasons I chose the school is because it's in east US, somewhere I've never been to and it'd be a great new experience. I sort of worked my ass off for a while studying for all the prelim exams. Most importantly I got great great great great help from my sister and without her I prolly wont even get the admission. I am supposed to start school Q3 of the year. However, after serious consideration and a couple of factors I decided to reject the offer. I am not sure whether I made the right or wrong choice but I'd like to think on the positive side.



8. Went up to Genting and lost RM500 in 15 minutes. Both the boy and I agreed that we shouldn't gamble when we have each other around coz it sorts of gives bad luck wtf.



9. Went to Hatyai and had the best Chicken Rice and my first ever Thai massage in Lee Garden Hotel.



10. Went to Bangkok for 5 days. Had lots and lots and lots of good good (which in the end contributed to the extreme weight gain). That's all I remember from the trip. FOOD! You can also see my obvious weight gain from the trip's photos =( le sigh



11. Went to US for 3 weeks ++ for Candy's UW commencement. Also dropped by San Francisco, Seattle and Vegas. Slept in the air bed for the first time and other than that, nothing special. Been there, done that. and bored of Vegas! I didn't even finished blogging about US yet. There's just too much photos and 3 weeks worth of blogs! Was supposed to go Canada at that time but decided to kill the plan because...I'm too tired and I need more sleep fml.



12. I cut off my long hair! I've had long hair since 6 years ago and the most I did was to trim the most 10cm off and that's about it. But one day I woke up and I knew I just had to cut it off because I'm also curious how I'd look like without hiding behind all the hair!



13. Went to Krabi. Was expecting a lot of sun, sand and fun but turns out to be the total opposite. Krabi rains everyday and I didn't even get to touch the sea at all coz the laut bergelora everyday and no longtail boat or even speedboat wants to go island hopping. In the end, we just rented the motorbike and jalan around the town everyday and eat pancake wtf.



14. Went to Malacca with the family! It's been ages since we last actually stayed overnight. Went for Makko yum yum!



15. Went to Melbourne for the boy's sister's wedding. Didn't do much because following the boy to Melb is like going to KL because Melb is like the boy's 2nd home since most of his family is in Melb already. But I had a good time checking out Melb town and went to the Great Ocean Road. Tried Max Brenner at last after reading about it soooo many times from all the blogs around. Nothing to shout about but it's a great hangout place and the Belgian Waffles is Love! Sorry I didn't get to blog about Melbourne yet but I will...soon....I promise! I didn't want to drag too long just in case I forgot about it also =) I am really looking forward to going to Australia again. There's so much more I want to see!



16. Went Skytrek for the 1st time in Shah Alam. Was definitely challenged because I was scared of heights and that damn skytrek is really quite high up! But like I said, after the first climb and first flying fox, you'd get used to the height and you will lose the fear. Trust me.



17. Someone I know passed away =(

18. Joel and Carmen is married! We all went down to KL for their wedding. Last year around the same time we went for Junn & Pey's, Kevin & Mei's and HuiYien & WeePing's. My god. All my friends are married.



19. Started taking Violin lessons. I completed Piano and Theory Certification already when I was 15 and violin has always been something I wanted to learn since then. So one day I just went straight to Yamaha Music School and signed up for the course. Violin is much tougher than piano at least that's what I think. lol maybe people who know violin but start learning piano would say piano is tougher too. We'd see how it goes for a few more months. Now at this point, I can't even play Old Macdonalds song nicely also. Any volunteer violinist out there willing to give me a point or two?



20. Celebrated a nothing more than ordinary birthday with my loved ones in KL and a mini get together with a couple of friends back in PG. Spent birthday eve and birthday itself sleeping at home and...that's about it. Family came down to KL and we tried Jarrod & Rawlins and also Vietnam Kitchen for the 1st time. Appreciate the family time coz it's getting lesser and lesser le sigh. Other than that, nothing special about my birthday hence I'll consider whether I'll even blog about it?



This year has been full of ups and downs. I had plenty of great family times especially with Candy returning for a month and also many more meet-ups with Pauline because she came down to KL more often. I seldom go back to Sgt though and I should really work on that. And I can't even remember the last time I go to Singapore to visit my brother le sigh.

I also had lesser friends time because I wasn't around in PG most of the weekends. Also, I don't go back to dancing at all. I actually DID go back for 1 class early this year but then the rest of the time I was either stuck in meetings or not even in PG at all.

I've also unfortunately gained back all the 7kgs that I lost early this year. My appetite has grown terribly and gym visits have been getting lesser and lesser. This is also definitely something I have to start working on IMMEDIATELY and repair whatever damage fml.

That's all folks. That's my 2009. It's not perfect and flawless. But I've enjoyed myself thoroughly and learnt a great deal from it. Did you have a great year too?




Go home

Happy Winter Solstice!

I don't know what 冬至 means or what it's for so I wiki-ed it:

Traditionally, the Dongzhi Festival is also a time for the family to get together. One activity that occurs during these get togethers (especially in the southern parts of China and in Chinese communities overseas) is the making and eating of Tangyuan (湯圓, Cantonese jyutping: tong1 jyun2; Mandarin Pinyin: Tāng Yuán) or balls of glutinuous rice, which symbolize reunion. Tangyuan are made of glutinuous rice flour and sometimes brightly coloured. Each family member receives at least one large Tang Yuan in addition to several small ones. The flour balls may be plain or stuffed. They are cooked in a sweet soup or savoury broth with both the ball and the soup/broth served in one bowl. It is also often served with a mildly alcoholic unfiltered rice wine containing whole grains of glutinous rice (and often also Sweet Osmanthus flowers), called jiuniang.

Eh I always thought Dong Zhi means the beginning of Winter and that's about it. I'm quite blur with all these festivals to start with. I told my friends during Bak Zhang festival that the legend is that the son threw Bak Zhang into the sea to prevent fishes from eating his mother who died and was thrown into the sea. Then when Mooncake festival come, I tell them it's because the son has to throw Mooncake into the sea blah blah blah the same story goes for all festivals fml.

There's only 1 nice Tang Yuan stall in Penang that I know which is near Komtar at Magazine Road. We decided to go over after dinner and very surprised to see an extremely long queue.


#1 The queue. Normally no queue wan lor. You order and you get it straight. That night everyone came with their own bekas.


#2 We decided to join in the hooha and queued up also lol see my 3 friends at the back there. The line continues after them all the way to the back blocking the road traffic wtf.


#3 There's an extra stall setup next to the Tang Yuan stall which supplies the flour only. It's of course for the Tang Yuan stall, but you also can just buy the flour back home and make yourself.


#4 We queued for half an hour or more I think! The queue branches into 2 and our line moves extremely slow compared to the next line.


#5 Normally only the purple apron auntie takes care of the stall and occasionally there's an uncle or another auntie there doing nothing just chatting with her. That night she got so many helpers and her stall is like so crowded.


#6 On normal days, there's only white and pink Tang Yuan. That night she prepared white, baby pink, dark pink and yellow!

It's all worth the wait though. Her tang yuan is seriously the best. The glutinuous ball is so geng you can use to play pong pong okay! Seriously wan! But maybe the soup that goes with it is a bit too sweet for me. I like it with more ginger so it'll be more spicy.

Anyway my point is I know what business to do next year already. You'll see me setup a stall in Bayan Lepas selling Tang Yuan during Dong Zhi huhu. Must come and support me okay.

甜汤圆

Penang Road,

Beside Bank Rakyat/Opposite Trader's Hotel,

6pm-11pm. Closed on Wednesday and Sunday.

(+016) 477-7764.

sometimes there are some things i know but did not say. when i did not mention it doesn't mean i don't know. i have mentioned before a gazillion times what i don't like and what i wish you would stop doing and have no whatsoever connection with some people or some things. so it's better for you to know when to stop because you should know i am not pleased even though you might not mean it or those things are what you perceive as "nothing" or "not important". if it's really "nothing" then why can't you ignore certain things or break it off so i can be comforted for once. because sometimes, "nothing" for you is "something" for me.

Merry Xmas!!

HELLO!

Everyone's favorite season of the year has arrived!
Do you have a Christmas plan yet? Done with Christmas shopping?
I initially wanted to buy a Christmas tree to put in my room (always wanted to do that) but never get to it because I wasn't even at home most of the time. Put there don know let who see.

I spent the day listening to Xmas songs haih so nice right. But no white Christmas too bad always wanted to spend it like those in the movie. waking up to snow and running downstairs with socks and sweaters to find present under the Christmas tree blah blah blah you know what i mean.

anyway, merry Xmas in advance!

*never liked David Archuletta kinda think he's a bit gay anyway lazy to find others so whatever lah!

Joel & Carmen

Since the wedding of Pey and Junn last November 08, all of us havent been going to KL together at all, until Joel announced his wedding and we started to plan where to stay and who to be the driver.

This time, I drove down because LSP has driven like a million times and on weekdays everyone has been taking turns driving out to lunch so I guess it's my turn then. We left PG on Fri around 3pm. It's the same 4 of us LSP me Kevin and Vsoon as last year when we made the trip to Malacca also. LSP is equipped with GPS and both Kevin & LSP swore to God they know the way to the "Lou Wong" Ipoh Chicken Hor Fun place. We reached Ipoh around 5pm and we think it's okay to go in Ipoh even though it's Friday and it's after office hour because we think Ipoh is a small town with very little people and it's quite impossible to have traffic jam.

Fuck Our Life. We got trapped in the jam for a long long long looooong time. And to make things worse, it's raining heavily. And Kevin & LSP suddenly FORGOT how to go to Lou Wong. And to top it all, the GPS has no signal. We tried for almost half an hr but no signal. fml. So Kevin had to keep asking people on the road for directions and he tried to ask a girl but she ran away. fuck his life haha.

Anyway, we did finally manage to reach after what seems like 5 hours wtf. We only spent half an hour eating. then we ta pao-ed Soya Bean drink next to Lou Wong. The uncle asked us if we want the black or white soya and everyone pointed to white soya and the uncle say black soya good then everyone changed their mind instantly to black soya. wtf. We're so easily conned.

We reached around 7pm and I dropped the guys in Sg Buloh at LSP's sister's place and I went to the boy's place. LSP sister is so nais. She also welcome us and everytime we need to go KL for whatever shit, she let us tumpang coz she has 3 story landed house with plenty rooms heh.

First few days spent bumming around doing absolutely nothing except eat eat eat. The wedding dinner was on Sunday night at Sri Petaling. Joe & Shu is the assigned photographer of the night. All these photos below are taken by them and I didn't edit anything. So nice right!


#1 My table.


#2 Moku showed up with a big flower on her head and caught everyone's attention hehe. I actually thought the flower is really nais! I also got one but I never wear before coz takut wtf.


#3 Of course, the obligatory photo with who else but Kevin. Just now during my company project dinner, one of the boss actually ask if my bf's name is Kevin wtf.


#4 The beauty and the.......handsome haha.


#5 It's been so long since we got together with liquor. Everyone seems to get so old that days like this where we drink together are so rare coz I get sleepy when the clock strikes 11 at night. fml.


#6 The boys in my team. Kok Wei is also a photographer nowadays he invested so much on cameras and starting get a really good grip with his work. You guys should check his photos out in facebook.


#7 Almost all of the DA team that's present that night..I think. I can't think of anyone who's missing except Therfar who's stuck in the jam and hasn't reached yet.


#8 Hello Love!


#9 As usual, everyone tried to get LSP drunk. At this time, I think he's arleady 60% drunk after a whole damn lot of bottoms up I tell you. Last time it's easy peasy to get LSP drunk but nowadays he trained damn hard and it takes A LOT of liquor to get him a big high. dammit. How like that?!


#10 As you can see, everyone kept surrounding him and forced him with drinks and drinks and drinks. It's almost as if LSP kena gang rape I tell you.


#11 Hehe at one point when we tried to pour liquor for him, he quickly covered his BOWL with his hands instead of covering his glass. He drunk liao hehe.


#12 I was one of the helper in the whole scam. See I so happy trying to get him drunk coz it's so fun.


#13 Even Peck Yee came over to join in the scam! Coz if Peck Yee asks LSP to drink takkan he din give face and don drink right. All of us sure fail wan coz we too close with LSP and he won't buy in our lies already so must get some new fresh face for him haha.


#14 Half way through. You probably can't tell but their faces are actually quite red except Vsoon and Kevin who doesn't drink. Chicken.


#15 My boy also quite red liao but becoz free liquor he kept drinking wtf.


#16 I tell you seriously their camera damn good okay if got pimples on face can see clearly.


#17 The 2 leng luis!


#18 The 2 leng luis also wtf but a bit blur because YYY is a noob he doesn't know how to operate Shu's canggih camera and end up he focus the water tank behind us haih.


#19 Us at the exit after congratulating the married couple for the last time. The dinner ended after 2 hours or so around 11pm?


#20 The cinderella's shoe! Quite a lot of inches but you can't see from here coz they covered the heels liao.


#21 Hello Love!

The food at the restaurant is pretty decent. But anyway, I didn't go for food. I went because 2 person I am close with are finally married. Yay! Can't wait to see their baby!

*photos credited to Joe & Susan.

Body Odor and Fibre.

One thing about fat people is some of them have this really awful body odor so bad that you won't want to hang out with them. That's exactly what's happening to me now! I felt myself smell like 10 kinds of shit everyday no matter how many times I bathe. There's just something about those fats under the skin that produce all that bad stuff. I gained so many kgs and I'm not even in denial anymore. Just face it. My fats jiggle when I walk fml.

I also stopped taking those fibre powders that I took for the past 1 year because it's starting to give me side effects like lots and lots of gas inside the tummy and the worst part is I cant even fart it out. Okay gross I know but I'm just telling you that no fibre in this world that can produce the same result without any side effects after a certain period of time. If there's one person that you should trust, it's me. I've been taking fibre powders for the last 10 years and tried over 20 types of powder. I know what I'm saying. All kinds of fibre powders are inclusive of some kinds of laxatives whether you like it or not. It's just how the manufacturers trying to con you into thinking that the detox works great when you shit a lot. That, my friends, is not entirely true. I read in some article before this that those shit that you have after drinking fibre powder doesn't entirely cleanse your colon. It's just taking away the surface part and the real toxic are still stuck to your colon wall or something like that and in the end, you'll still get colon cancer sad to say that.



But please do remember that I'm saying this as someone who drinks fibre powder EVERYDAY. which is not the way to be I know I know but I have no choice because I have this fear towards vegetable fml. My aunt who's a specialist say that it's good for a normal person (those who eat vege and shits everyday like all of you) to take fibre powder once every 2 weeks or once a month to do a detox of your body.

So now, what I'm taking is, Citrucel. Citrucel is a new product by GSK. If you don't know GSK, where the hell have you been. GSK is the company that produces panadol and ribena and also the antibiotics for H1N1. I take 6 tablets everyday like a drug addict but sad to say that Citrucel doesn't work that well for me because I don't shit everyday (like what the previous fibre powder provides me). But I'm still taking it because I believe in the company yah I'm bias like that I think any product coming out from them should be quite safe and good. Companies that provide fibre powders that I usually take are not well known and I don't know how trustworthy they are. And its written on the box that after taking 6 tablets daily and if you still do not have any bowel movements then it means you have serious problem and advised you to consult the doctor. Yah, so as expected, I'm in that category and I also do realize that consulting the doctor would not give me any new information I didn't know.



Anyway,

I actually wanted to blog about fatness and smelly issue I don't know how it got to fibre and giving you too much information about my shit and stuff. So okay thanks bye.

Random Updates

I am soooooooooooo tired! I woke up at 4am and just got home in PG this morning at 7am. I seriously must cut down a bit on travelings. It's seriously taking its toll on me.

#1, my housemate is moving out end of this month so my apartment's middle room is going to empty soon! Me and my other housemate is looking for housemate right now so if you know of ANYONE who needs a room, let me know joan.lim@gmail.com. The room is RM270 inclusive of electricity and water. Streamyx is available but not included in the 270. Apartment is almost fully furnished with fully equipped kitchen, washing machine and fridge ready to be used. I will take some photos and post up maybe tomorrow then you can forward to anyone who needs a room!

#2, my mum is terribly sick =( And the worst part is, I am the last in the family to know =( Even my sister who's in US also know about it and the other sister brother all in Singapore also know. I am the ONLY ONE IN MALAYSIA AND I HAVE NO IDEA =( Why like that!!!! Blood test result returned with extremely low platelet count and doctor suspected it's dengue but after some tests, the result returned negative THANK GOD. Her whole body is aching and turns out she has chikunguya. Chikunguya and Dengue are both common viral illnesses transmitted by the bites of aedes mosquito =( She has been really sick for a whole week =( I really hope she gets well by this weekend. And I'm in PG and I can't do anything about it! Even I in Segamat also I can't do anything about it but haih better be there than somewhere else. I'm sure you all know what I mean =( I'm thinking I should go back to SGt this weekend if possible.

ALL OF YOU PLEASE REFER HERE FOR WAYS TO PREVENT CHIKUNGUNYA. Do not take it lightly please.

#3 I am helping my eldest sister with her wedding cards now because she wanted to bring it over when she leaves for Nigeria in December. I managed to get it settled in like 2 days and the draft was sent to me 3 days after and after some minor corrections, they're off for printing now! I hope it's in time before she leaves next 2 weeks!

#4 HELLO MY BIRTHDAY IS COMING UP!!!!! It's December again wtf why so fast wan lah!!!! Last time I want birthdays to come fast but now I scared already wtf coz everytime birthday means I'm 1 year older sigh. Anyone want to buy me present can start picking it now wtf shameless.

#5 DAMN A LOT OF WEDDINGS omigod. I attended 4 weddings already just from Nov till now. This weekend got wedding again but it's not my friend. It's the boy's business friends which is like must attend coz give face wan.

#6 Now I'm watching 宫心计 and 富贵门. You all got watch or not? Quite nice leh. No nice movies in cinema now. I'm only waiting for Storm Raider II and Avatar. Should be nice wan I think based on the reviews and the trailer.

#7 AirAsia is having promotions again. Me and the boy is planning where to go maybe Hong Kong?

#8 WHERE TO SPEND CHRISTMAS AND NEW YEAR? So fast 2010 already!!!!! Do you guys have any plans yet?!!

Gives Me Hope

First, there's Fuck My Life then there's My Life Is Average and also Post Secret. Now there's Gives Me Hope:

Today, my grandmother died. I took a walk to try and calm down but ended up sitting on a park bench crying. Someone tapped me on the shoulder and a man handed me a beautiful bouquet of flowers. He said, "I walked past here earlier and you were crying, so I got you these flowers", and walked away. Kind strangers like him GMH.

-Taken out from GMH. Now I have more things to read everyday coz PostSecret only get updated weekly.

can i count on you if i fall apart

I forgot how it feels like to be spoilt or being truly cared for. But, part of me has already given up hoping.

RIP You Are Sorely Missed.

I was told that one of my friend passed away this morning at 10am. It was only 4 hours before that he informed everyone that he will be bringing her back to PG from KL. I am not very sure of the details but as far as I know, she suffered from severe headache around 1.5 months ago and has been admitted to the hospital and then with surgeries and then the frustrating wait for the reports. She was checked out and then admitted in again and that continued for 1 month. Now she's gone. It is too fast. She was still her bubbly healthy self in September.

It was 1 month ago that I told myself I should call her. It was 3 weeks before that I asked around for her number. It was last Friday I messaged him to find out if she's still in the hospital. I was told that she was checked out and resting in her sister's place. I was also told that the doctor told them she has only 4 months left and with chemotherapy, hopefully they can prolong it to 1.5 years. I told myself I should pay her a visit. It always in my thoughts that I should do this and do that.

I never did.

I felt bad because a friend has passed away. I felt worse because only death can make me reflect upon myself, on what I should have done, on what I never did, and on what I would never have chance to do again. When I first learnt of her death, i first felt guilt before sadness. I felt guilty because I was in KL all the time and I never did take a bit of my time to even pay her a visit and to let her know that she is in my thoughts.

She is a great person. I believe everyone who know her would say the same. A dear friend and a friendly neighbor to me. I came to PG 5 years ago not knowing anyone but my sister. She moved in next to our apt shortly after that and since then we have hung out together most of the time. She is a great cook. I spent most of my meal at their house. She then found a new job and followed her husband down to KL. I cannot remember the last time we met. Must be damn loooong ago when she was still in PG.

I spent the day going through all her updates in facebook and flipping through her photos. It really saddens me that I literally lost a friend. I really cannot imagine how he is feeling right now but thank god that he get to spent the last few weeks of her life beside her. But death, in a way, is a relief and release for her. At least we know she is no longer suffering now.

Today I learnt never to take anything for granted. I never did call because I kept thinking I have plenty of time and I kept delaying it again and again. So please, please call that someone you care about and tell them you love them before it's too late.